Wednesday, February 11, 2009

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KANDA


The morning of our first full day in Kanda began with a smiling Indian child bearing 2 steaming cups of chai. The mornings are chilly here in the mountains and the spicy beverage is the perfect blanket. Our conversations with Jeevan continued and we echoed our concerns and ideas to our Canadian / Australian counterparts. We arranged with Jeevan to visit some of the homes that he had in mind for the lights. We walked the new road that is still under construction, past groups of men breaking stone by hand (Nepalese men, Jeevan informed us). Below the road, dirt pathways lead us to small double room houses. After a few visits, it was apparent to us that there is a great need here. Many of the homes on Jeevan's list were of widows or abandoned women with children. Many were one room homes with little to no furniture, all without electricity. One home in particular belongs to an employee of Jeevan's. To get to her house, we followed the winding footpath up the mountain from Jeevan's and entered the stable of another larger home. Pushing aside goats and cattle, stooping beneath the low ceiling, our host reached up to open a small trapdoor in the ceiling, and motioned us through. The small hole barely fit us and we clambered up to emerge in an 8x8 foot room with one window. Whatever doubts we had were quickly disappearing, and we couldn't wait to get to work.



On the morning of day three, we addressed our issue with the community center. The way we looked at it, with no second floor and roof, there could be no light installation. Jeeven's men had been collecting stone and sand for bricks, but ROSE had no money for cement and rebar to build the walls. We had at least 2 weeks until our lights would arrive, so we decided to spend the remaining money we had from our donations and buy as much cement and rebar as we could get our hands on. That decision made...Jeevan, Ethan, and I set out on foot for the market, a kilometer up the mountain side.



Cruising the Kanda market with Jeevan was like being with the Godfather of Kanda. Men sitting on the retaining wall in groups jumped up and folded their hands, nodded slowly, and greeted him, "Namaste.". He returned the greeting (as did we) with a small smile and gentle nod. (Slowly, slowly) we made our way through the market, obviously intent on a specific destination, but in no hurry to get there. Jeevan waved and spoke with nearly everyone we passed, but we never stopped our snail-like pace. As we passed a large truck filled with men unloading cattle feed, Jeevan jumped up to the door, peered in the window, and started shouting in Hindi. The driver of the truck yelled back. This went on for a minute or so then Jeevan jumped off, motioned us on and continued up the road. He stopped at a food market and leaned on the counter. The conversation between himself and the shopkeeper seemed non-chalont, two country boys chewing the fat. Jeevan kept his eyes on the street as they seemed to debate a subject. Finally, Jeevan nodded and said to me, "Ok, you give this man 3000 rupees." Apparently, he had been bargaining concrete prices. During the next hour or so, we followed Jeevan around the market as he talked to various people. He would take them by the arm, lead them a small distance away, and hold onto them as he bargained for different material. We could not imagine attempting this on our own. Some of the concrete bags were loaded into the truck we procured, the rest would be brought by Nepalese laborers. The cheap labor of this area, they are renowned for carrying heavy loads long distances. The sight of them in pairs, concrete bags weighing over 100 pounds strapped to their heads with a strap, marching like ants at a picnic up the mountainside is quite impressive. We set off down the road in the truck, stopping once more to go through the whole ordeal again for rebar. On the way back to Jeevan's, he asked me to climb in the back of the truck to stand on the rebar, holding it in the truck during the jarring ride. It was a satisfying moment...rumbling down the road, dust and wind in my face, mountain scenery rolling by, literally holding down the raw material to construct a permanent locality for community building in Kanda.



In the days since then we have fallen into a steady routine. Up at 7:00, tea immediately, and time to read, write or send emails if the power is on. Breakfast is at 9:00, usually chipate (flatbread) and dhal (lentils). Begin work at 10, hauling water jugs down the mountainside to make concrete and constructing bricks in the hot sun. The amount of locals that come to watch us work has prompted many jokes by Ethan and I. With no music, we've taken turns singing songs as we work. We take a tea break at 12:00, lunch at 2:00 (rice and dhal with some vegetables). We finish around 5:00 and head back to the house to heat water over the outdoor fireplace for a hot bucket "shower". At this time of day I try to write, but usually end up playing games with the kids around the house. Pick up games of cricket with a stick bat and goat turds seems to be the most popular. While having races the other day with the kids on our shoulders we discovered that the pine cones on the low hanging branches of trees will shower a person with green pollen dust when shaken. We promptly started deliberately running into the branches with kids on our shoulders, covering their hair and shirts in a fine green coating. This caused intense laughter all around. The combination of that and the thin mountain air had me holding my knees, trying to catch my breath.



Dinner is usually around 8:30 (chipate with dhal and alu-gobi, a potato / cabbage curry, and some goat meat if we're lucky). Portions are huge. Hema, Jeevan's wife is not usually happy until we eat at least a large second portion. Her English, from what I can tell, is limited to, "Rice? Alu-gobi? Chipati? Anything more? Eat! Eat!" After dinner we usually lie around the small dining room / living room / Jeevan and Hema's bedroom and practice Hindi or discuss work progress. On occasion, Jeevan pours us a small glass of rum from a bottle he keeps hidden. This is the time of day we get to know the family.

Jeevan is the obvious patriarch. He has been hosting visitors since 1985 and has been a community activist since even earlier. Before taking on this role full time he owned a small jewelry shop. He has a full belly and face, a skinny, steel grey mustache and matching hair that is receding to the crown of his head.

His wife, Hema, runs the show around the house. Other than food words, she speaks entirely in Hindi. She frequently shouts or speaks rapidly with an intensity that only a woman attempting to feed 13 people every day could. When she's excited, her large eyes seem to double in size, likely to spring forth on the family member at the receiving end of her sharp tongue. She also smiles large when someone makes a joke, but is all business for the most part. She is skinny as a rail and her brown face is deeply furrowed by work in the sun. Her grin is missing several teeth. I have seen her console a crying grandchild and carry a log on her head in the same hour.

Jeevan's son Jeet...we haven't made up our mind about yet. On job sites he does more sitting and giving orders than working. This is a quality that will make me loose my patience all too quickly and I mostly ignore him on the job site. At home he can be humorous, using what little English he has. Recent British volunteer arrivals to the village said that he was quite comforting to his wife during a recent hospital visit. This dramatically improved my opinion of him, and I'm trying to keep an open mind. He has much to improve on if he intends to take over his father's organization one day.

Jeet's wife is very shy around us. She works closely with Hema in the kitchen and around the farm. Her sari (sign of a married woman) and jewelry accent her natural beauty and graceful way she carries herself around the house. We were informed by a family member that she has had several miscarriages (reason for the hospital visit) and I'm sure this adds to her reserved nature around the family and us. Young women who recently marry into and join a household are held to strict standards before being given a certain status in the family...bearing children is not the least of these.

Renu is Jeevan's youngest daughter still at home, she is 23. One of her sisters is off at college in the nearby city of Haldwani. Next to Jeevan, her English is the best in the family. She is quick to joke and laugh and loves trying to teach us Hindi. Our pronunciations cause her to tilt her head to the sky with giggles. Like Hema, she works hard all day, everyday. Taking care of the cows and goats, watering the crop, cleaning, cooking, mending clothes, shucking grain, and taking care of kids are only a few of her responsibilities. Without these women, the Verma household would fall to ruin and they have commanded my respect from day one. Renu has a pretty but tomboyish appearance accented by her muscular arms. Ethan and I agree that she would be a skilled climber.

Two of Jeevan's grandchildren have lived at the farm for the past 6 years. They are the children of one of his daughters that cannot afford to raise them. Rushee is 12. She attends a local private school and is quick to change out of her uniform when she returns to run around with the boys. She helps around the house / farm alot, but is quick to argue and seems to share her grandmother's ability to strike out with her words. Her brother, Gautam, is 8 and is certainly the most easy going in the family. He wants to play games constantly and frequently has a part of his last meal smeared on his shirt or face. He likes to join Ethan and I in our pullup / pushup routine and his efforts put us in stitches laughing. He smiles so big it forces his eyes nearly closed. He earnestly does his homework at night, and his English reading is excellent.

Sedju is Jeevan's youngest son. He is 15, tall and skinny and seems to not have decided if he is still a boy or a young man. He walks with the men and tries to contribute to the conversations, but will then leave to play games with the kids and takes to bossing them around. While all the men we've been around are very mellow and rarely raise their voices, Sedju is constantly shrieking in his mid-pubescent voice...scolding the small children for seemingly minor offenses. On occasion he strikes them or holds them down roughly to yell. At first, we didn't want to get involved, but quickly Ethan and I started to intervene, evening the score for the little guys. Guatam has spunk, and fights back.

Delays in the delivery of our light shipment have put us a bit behind schedule. Ethan and I decided to set out for the Himalaya proper for a few days and return closer to the date of delivery. Jeevan's workers have plenty to do with all the materials we supplied them with, and we have put a week's worth of brick making into the effort. We hope to return with things are in full swing.

Like all traveling, life in India is measured not by how much you see, but how deep you let the experience penetrate you. Sometimes the dirt under your fingernails has to start singing before you accept the gritty reality around you. Things are still clean, neat, and sensible somewhere, but here the paint peels and isn't replaced. Sometimes things just won't make sense. But...as long as the Masala Dosa stays sweet and the saris stay bright, India will remain a place worth being. It is not an easy place to be, sometimes, like having synthetic material against your skin. Not outright uncomfortable, just itchy. The harrowing bus rides, the food, the long stares...it has an emotional toll that can set your nerves on end. Was that the sound of footsteps on metal stairs or a thunderclap? is the busdriver crazy enough to warrant getting off at the next town? Are my hands clean enough to eat with? At times I can feel my psychi move from one end of the spectrum to the other...from detached observation to a riveting conversation bound by my hand on someone's shoulder. Comfort is rare, but when present, feels earned.

LATA

Ethan tracked down a guide for us in the Himalayan streets of Joshemath. For amazingly cheap, the man agreed to take us up Kuari pass (4500m) and stay at his house in the remote village of Lata. Upon investigation at the Nanda Devi National Park office, we were denied a permit...apparently the "season" had not begun. Our guide assured us that there were other mountains worth getting up that has spectacular views of the Nanda Devi range. We quickly packed a jeep with our gear and set out for another hair raising ride through the mountains. Lata turned out to be everything we were looking for. A quiet mountain farming village in the most unlikely brutal terrain. Many of the men had turned to guiding in the summer (we were the only fools attempting to climb in the winter that season). Lata lies in a steep valley / canyon, overlooked by enormous mountains. Beyond the ridges enclosing the valley lie the truly magnificent peaks. We started up Lata-Keri (~4500m) at 5 the next morning. It was refreshing to be winded, hiking up what would be a sizable mountain in the states, here just another of many "small" mountains on the fringe of Nanda Devi. As we climbed, more and more jagged, razor sharp peaks came into view. Midway, our guide stopped to build a fire and make chai. At the summit, we had a 360 degree view of mountains over 7000 meters as well as pieces of Tibet that stuck out between the peaks. We were told that we were a 2 day walk to the high pass that used to serve as a small on-foot trading route between the mountain peoples of the two nations, but has been closed since the Chinese took over Tibet 60 years ago.

After chai and potatoes on the snowy summit, we began to descend. Apparently we were not supposed to be up on this peak (permit required) and were flying below the radar. To avoid being seen coming off the mountain and back into the village, our guide led us off trail with over 1000 meters (3300 feet) left to descend. At first we followed game trails and enjoyed sliding through the snow. But, as the terrain became steeper, the snow muddier, and we had to routinely crash through thorn bushes, I lost my sense of humor. I could have blundered down the side of a mountain on my own, I didn't need a guide to show me how. After a few hours of this, emerging from the brush on a snowy precipice, I piped up. "Alright pal, where's a trail?! A good trail, there has to be one!" He motioned us on and eventually we came upon a steep human trail that led to the road at the valley floor. 10 hours after starting, we crawled into our sleeping bags at his house to doze and eat the afternoon away.

Our guide, Raju's house is typical of the area. Concrete floors, mud and stone walls, and rock or tin roofs...the place is unheated and smells of goats. He shares the small house with his brother and his brother's wife, some of their children, and his own son. His wife passed away 2 months before and his brother's wife had taken over the maternal responsibilities for the child. His brother had been a successful trekking and mountaineering guide, the list of peaks he had ascended in the area was impressive. He had been blinded during an expedition 20 year ago, he told us this the first night we arrived. He apparently could see within a few feet and came very close during introduction to see our faces. From what we could gather from the conversation (his English was clear, but limited), he had experienced bad snow-blindness on the 3 week expedition (snow blindness is caused by the sun's reflection off the snow directly hitting the retinas, over prolonged periods it has the same effect as staring at the sun). After returning from the mountain climb, we talked further and learned he has actually survived a bad fall on a summit approach. He came of the headwall and slid 1000m down the face and broke his neck. We sat on beds in our sleeping bags in the 12 x 8 foot mud room, drinking homemade wine (that tasted like saki) and smoking hand rolled cigarettes...listening to the man's tales. Later, Ethan would rewire the electricity to the room. They were stealing from the village power supply and their system of bare wires and hooks was quite frightening.

Our arrival in Joshemath 3 days before was achieved by one of the most mentally exhausting travel days I've ever had. We spent 14 hours taking a series of jeeps and buses to our destination from Kanda. Public transportation only goes from one town to the next and back. I believe it took 8 separate rides to complete the journey. Each one began with us unloading from a bus or jeep and wandering around the town calling out the names of towns on the route until a driver snatched us up. The closer we got to Josemath the hairier the roads became. We boarded the final bus at sundown. Shortly after leaving town the bus was lurching around hairpin turns on a single dirt track road, cut out of the cliff side. 600 foot cliffs rose and fell from either side of the crumbling road, no guard rail of course. Then the lightning started...and the wind. The locals began to muter to each other and yelled to the bus driver...never a good sign. He finally pulled over. By this time the night had fallen and the rain had come. We sat in the bus listening to the gusts that rocked the bus back and forth, gravel peppered the windows, the rain came in sheets. Ethan and I debated whether we should get of the bus and hoof it back to the last town, rather than chance continuing. Indian bus drivers are notoriously overconfident in their speed and driving ability..it borders on insanity. When he did start out again, Ethan cursed and I prayed, clutching the St. Christopher medallion that hangs around my neck...then I joined Ethan in cursing. An hour later, we arrived in town, nerves shot to hell, ready to kiss the sweet ground of the filthy mountain army post we had arrived in...Joshemath.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Slowly, slowly sir...

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VARANASI


3 days past since I left the holy city and sat down to write about it. I haven’t written because frankly I find it hard to define the experience in words. It was like being a witness to the most extravagant funeral in the world.


The old city has several main boulevards traversing it, choked with traffic. The rest of the city is a labyrinth of alleyways, floored by bricks and formed on each side by three story multi-colored buildings. Navigating the labyrinth successfully brings one to the top of the ghats. The ghats are grand staircases of various sized steps and landings that lead down to the Ganges River. There are more than 25 in Varanasi. Moored at each ghat are small passenger boats of every color. Along the river, in great numbers, are groups of people bathing and washing their clothes. This can be an all day affair. Men lead herds of wandering cattle and water buffalo out of the alleyways to be bathed as well. This is seen as good karma and they seem to debate over who gets the rights to be the bather. To be burned at one of these main ghats after death is one of the most highly sought after funeral rites of the Hindi, and is predominantly limited to the wealthy and powerful.


At night, flaming corpses are visible up and down the river. Chanting and drums can be heard until sunup, when the ghats lie dormant for a few short hours. Those that cannot afford to be cremated this way yet still feel they must join the Ganges in order to reach a higher spiritual plane have their remains bound by rocks at the feet and are plunged into the center of the river. This fact, combined with the copious amounts of human waste that flow through the sewers (really open air 2 foot deep gutters that notoriously overflow) and into the river make the prospect of submerging oneself unthinkable, except to the Hindu. Perhaps the fact that they still bathe is a sign of their devotion to spirituality. Whatever it may be it significantly adds to the weight this place puts on the mind.

On the last day of my stay, I jumped on the back of a motorcycle owned by one of the employees of the guesthouse I was staying at. He took me on a tour of the local temples (including the site of Buddha’s first sermon). As always, though I thoroughly enjoyed the temples, the site of the city and everyday Indian life were the most intriguing. Markets, taxis, bicycles, and rickshaws in amazing amounts flew by, careening in all directions. I’d grown accustomed to this Indian day to day. What Varanasi added to the mix was the occasional funeral party in ceremonial garb, carrying the corpse in a sheet on their shoulders, or say…a man in a loin cloth, covered in white powder, with red and orange paint on his face, praying and gyrating down the street.


AGRA


The Taj Mahal, the magnificent “teardrop of love in a pool of eternity”, or some such… It IS quite remarkable, especially in comparison to the country in which it resides. The sheer whiteness, the clean purity is shocking enough, let alone the size and intricacy.


Awakening at dawn in India means you can hear the country come alive. The mosque’s call to prayer is usually the first thing. Singing voices on a tinny speaker, first one, then many, call in the faithful Muslims to Allah. Usually the monkeys are next, a few call to each other, but mostly the sound of their scampering feet on the rooftop are heard. They are certainly the most entertaining part of the wildlife in India. The other day, while drinking my morning cup of chai on a rooftop, I watched an old woman hang wet laundry to dry. Just as she went inside, like someone blew a whistle, monkeys came from every direction. They leapt across rooftops and swung from power lines to reach the wet clothes. The started bouncing up and down on the line and shrieking. A few attempted to pull the clothes from the line and make a break for it when the lady of the house came with a broom. Quite a comical scene and had myself and some Finnish cohorts slapping our knees with laughter.


My travel companion, Ethan, arrived in Agra in the middle of the night from the US, spent from over 40 hours of travel. It will be good to have a friend to manage India’s many obstacles ad unpleasentries with, and to share in its rewards. I was proud to see that Ethan came to India bearing one of the world’s finer symbols of masculinity…the mustache. It is a thing largely lost to the white men of my generation, to our detriment. How could we have strayed so far from the wisdom of our forefathers? I’m sure many of you have seen righteous photos of your dad’s from back in the day sporting one of many mustache styles. Well, India has them all, in force. And, Ethan has been brave enough to stand in the face of adversity and weather the battles of American ridicule in order to stand proud bearing a symbol of facial follicle freedom. I salute you, brother.


DELHI


Delhi’s backpacker ghetto, where we stayed for one necessary night, is packed full of hookah shops, tacky souvenir stores, hotels, and some of the worst touts I’ve experienced yet. These guys follow you for blocks, “My friend, my friend! Where you from?! Taxi, hashish, what you need?!!!” It is my least favorite part of traveling, but stops in these types of neighborhoods (near train stations) are convenient and brief.


Ethan and I traveled to the center of the city to see what there was to see, it didn’t appear to be much, and we decided to return to our hotel not long after dark. The man driving the rickshaw we hailed spoke good English and didn’t assault us with offers of other, less respectable goods and services as other drivers had. He engaged us in conversation and had us laughing. He asked if we liked beer…”of course.” Whiskey? “Sometimes, but we prefer beer.” “Good, good.” He replied “Whiskey is risky and makes you chiskey!” Chiskey? Apparently this is the Hindi word for sleepy. We agreed to a stop off for a beer and offered to buy him one. He told us some of his family history. His family lives in a slum in West Delhi. His grandfather had relocated the family there from Northern Pakistan in the 1950’s during the separation of Pakistan from India. We also discussed cricket. On the way back to the rickshaw, he stopped us at a stand and offered to buy us paan. On the stand were 10 baskets of different ingredients. Samir, our driver, ordered for us. Paan is bitten off in chunks, chewed thoroughly, and either spat or swallowed when the juices start flowing. Ethan and I’s best guess as to the ingredients were Vicks vapor rub, ice cream sprinkles, raisins, and aluminum shavings wrapped in spinach. Samir watched as we took bites, nodded approval, and turned the rickshaw toward home. After sideways glances to each other, we discreetly spat out the mixture and tossed the remains out the side of the moving vehicle. Samir dropped us off and promised to return the next day to give a tour of the city, teach us cricket, and take us to his mother’s house for a home cooked meal. A typical taxi ride, right?


Ethan and I had full intentions on taking Samir up on his offer, but I was struck by a particularly stomach churning case of Delhi-belly that kept me up all night. I dared not stray too far from my hotel room bathroom the whole next day. At 10 pm, after a riveting day of watching Bollywood TV and CNN, and pleading with my small intestines for mercy, we boarded a train for the Himalayas. Ten hours on a train and then another jarring ten on a local bus brought us to Kanda, our philanthropic destination. Most notable on the ride, aside from the carsick women, was when the bus stopped at a shrine. A man passed a tray with burning incense and tika paint through the window to be passed around. Also notable was a view of the HIMALAYAS!!! Rising like giant, crystalline protuberances from lush green foothills, they’ve stood in the way of weather system and army alike for centuries. It’s as if clouds decided to take on angry, sharp angles and thrust downward until they collided with the Earth, hardening into an impenetrable, awe-inspiring wall of ice and stone. Our views of them were brief as the bus lurched around hairpin turns and back into tree cover, but my heart still quickened knowing that I now existed in their shadow. I have waited my whole life to visit and pay homage to this, the greatest mountain range on Earth. Inside myself, I giggled like a little boy knowing that I would soon touch my hands and feet to their flanks. In the meantime though, there is work to do…


KANDA


Inexplicably happy to extract ourselves from the crowded bus, Ethan and I walked down the dirt road from the Kanda market, down into the valley, looking for my contact, Jeevan Verma. The Kanda valley descends from its ridgeline in terraced stair step fields and clusters of small homes. Irrigation channels zig zag out from the streams to feed the thirsty wheat crop. Small soapstone excavation areas shine white on the green landscape and men can be seen working the pits, pulling stone from the earth to shore up terraces and build houses. The ridges outlines and defining the valley are thick with pine trees. They look like white pine with their wispy needles but the fascicle bunches are grouped in balls on the limbs, giving the trees a clustered look, almost like grapes. Banana trees spot the valley, giving it a tropical feel in spots. Monkeys are around, though not in the amounts seen in the plains. Certainly present, painting the classic Indian picture, are the sarees. From this elevated distance, they flutter gently as the forms beneath them glide over their work. The light catches the patterns differently, expressing all facets of this most feminine garment. I love to become absorbed by their presence in numbers. Too much to see all at once, and not as impressive when viewed alone, their sight must be inhaled, aspirated…perhaps by the pores of the skin or maybe the third eye humans have that opens when we stare at the ocean long enough. In this Himalayan setting, it is purely poetic…Breath, see, blink, and walk on…


We were escorted to Jeevan’s house by two young boys on their way home from school. Jeevan’s house stands on the mountainside, 1/3 of the way down to the valley floor with magnificent, sweeping views of the Kanda valley. His family stays on the second floor of the house, guests on the ground floor. The kitchen and stable for the cows are apart from the main house. Jeevan is a very amiable, talkative man with obvious energy. He speaks quickly and doubles up many words. “Yes, yes! Slowly, slowly!” etc. His kids and grandkids were quick to bring us tea and the little ones engaged us in games. We were shown our room, bare, except for 2 simple beds (cotton pad over plywood) and straw mats on the floor. The rest of the house is furnished relatively the same. We met our only neighbors in the guesthouse, an Australian / Canadian couple and they filled us in on the work they’d been doing…making concrete bricks from local river sand to build another water tank. Jeevan took us on a quick tour of his place and the adjacent community center project down the hill. The building was only half complete, still lacking its second story and roof…the roof we need in order to install the solar panels for the center’s lighting system.


After talking with Jeevan at length about our project goals, Ethan and I talked privately about the curveballs being thrown at us and how to handle them. One issue was the incomplete community center. Second, locations for the solar paneled street lights. Jeevan wants some placed on the path in between the community center and his village area (i.e. his house) but, we’re not sure that is the best use of one of the lights. Third, selecting houses to receive the in-house lighting systems based upon appropriate criteria. At the core of our dilemma was trying to feel out Jeevan. What are HIS goals, what are HIS motivations? Reading through his website and resume provides us with a good idea as to his past projects and what his organization has accomplished. Understanding him and more importantly, how we fit into the equation proves more difficult.


Admittedly, looking around the beautiful Kanda valley, Ethan and I wonder if our time and our donators’ money would be best put to use here. After traveling through so many disastrously impoverished areas in India, Kanda seems better off. In reality, their additional wealth may be nothing more than aesthetics, but this adds a strong sense of pride and hope in their place in the world. We debated about how to determine need and what the true purpose of our mission is before falling asleep on our firm beds. The conclusion we came to for the night was that we need to educate ourselves more on Kanda before deciding on anything.